"Tragedy" by Brandi Carlile

"Tragedy"
By: Brandi Carlile


Sorry I'm only
Human you know me
Grown up oh no guess again

My days always
Dry up and blow away
Sometimes I could do that too
But make no mistake that

When you need a friend
You could count on anyone
But you know I'll defend
The tragedy that we knew as
The end

Progress, changing
Growing then giving up
Somehow we're never quite prepared
But I understand it

When you need a friend
You could count on anyone
But you know I'll defend
The tragedy that we knew as
The end

So taking you with me would be like
Taking all your money to the grave
It does no good to anyone especially
The one you're trying to save
But it's so hard not to save

When you need a friend
You could count on anyone
But you know I'll defend
The tragedy that we knew as
The end

"On the Radio" Regina Spektor

"On the Radio"
By: Regina Spektor

This is how it works
It feels a little worse
Than when we drove our hearse
Right through that screaming crowd
While laughing up a storm
Until we were just bone
Until it got so warm
That none of us could sleep
And all the styrofoam
Began to melt away
We tried to find some worms
To aid in the decay
But none of them were home
Inside their catacomb
A million ancient bees
Began to sting our knees
While we were on our knees
Praying that disease
Would leave the ones we love
And never come again

On the radio
We heard November Rain
That solo's really long
But it's a pretty song
We listened to it twice
'Cause the DJ was asleep

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

And on the radio
You hear November Rain
That solo's awful long
But it's a good refrain
You listen to it twice
'Cause the DJ is asleep
On the radio
(oh oh oh)
On the radio
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio

WARNING: It's a Possibility That I Have No Idea What I'm Talking About.

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Dear Reader, that's you,
It's the final countdown! Da na na na Da na na na na Da na na na Da na na na na na Da na na na Da na na na na Da na na na na Da na na na na na na Na na na Na na na na na Na na Na na na na na. Doo doo doo doo.
I played that song on repeat this morning. It was awesome. Do it sometime. And while you're at it buy a kilt. Kilts are awesome. I would laugh though. Because you wouldn't actually buy a kilt. So you would be lying. Which is a bad bad thing. Don't lie. Unless you get a cookie for it. Kidding. Don't lie unless you get 2 cookies for it. I caution you though, when you meet Darth Vader in the toilet paper department in Walmart, you're insane. That's my caution.


Hey, I added new pictures. :D
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
They are that way. -->
I promise.


Hugs on the other hand...

My life is a Fail with a capital "F"

I love this picture so much. It's adorable. Even with a bunny that looks like a stuffed animal, waving all by itself. :) Kawwwwaiiii


Today was indecisive. It couldn't make up it's mind on whether it sucked or not. I have a group project, due Monday, and we "filmed" some of it today and I have to say...it was....wow. I mean sure it's a load of fun having your boyfriend put mud all over your face, having to hold Anderson (who is almost as tall as me o.O) and rock him like a baby, while he sucks his thumb. I bet you wish you knew how fun that was...and will be because we're doing it tomorrow too. >.<
BUT a plus: yesterday was a BLAST.
I went to the galleria with Jack, Taylor, Austin, Jota, Maria, Sebs...etc (etc is because I don't remember the other dude's name.) And it was fun. We played darts in Buckle and got picked on and laughed at by the guy's that worked there. (And I accidentally called my mom and she listened to it for 5 minutes until I realized voices were coming from my pants. Awkward.) We pretty much played darts throughout the whole place though. It was pretty awesome. THEN taylors bro and "momma" came and after a lot of lillygagging, we went to his house and watched Hot Rod which I almost wet my pants laughing at. Cool beans. Co-o-o-o-o-ol cool co-o-o-oooool. Ba-beans beans be-be-beans. :D FTW. For the waffle!!

BUT minus: My life= fail. Happy. Sad. Annoying. Chaotic. Busy. bleh bleh bleh. It can't make up it's mind!!! I feel like a nincomppop. FAIL. Nincompoop. There. AANNYYYWWAAYYSS. I'm still having trouble forgetting/getting past some drama with some people. New drama is forming. I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. I have the most hilarious and loyal friends in the universe. I'm losing relationships with more than a couple people and I'm terrified because I don't know what to do to stop it. I'm TOO busy with homework, and yet my social life still exists. Don't ask me how. Let's just say I have an amazing mother. Yadda yickity yack.

"Kids" by MGMT literally describes exactly how I feel right now. Growing up hurts. A lot.

Hugs on the other hand...

It's Always Babies...Except When It Isn't...

Hi hello hiya. That was weird. You were totally expecting more variations of "hello" but I didn't give it to you did I? Nope. I didn't give it to you. There is no way I gave that to you. No sir. No ma'am. I did NOT give it to you. Did I give it to you? No, nope, no way, not a chance, Bob.

Okay: 1. That is a cute, or kawaii (which actually sounds cuter than the word "cute" by the way) picture. I'm digging the "You" on the bib. Random awesomeness right there. And on a baby too! :D I just corrected myself. I almost said "amazingness" but that's not a word, and I say "amazing" an unhealthy amount.
2. What is it? You should know, and I already told you so you REALLY should know. If not then go to school. Now. Because that is a freaking baby, and you need to know a baby when you see one. Mmmmkay? Mkay. Mkay? Mkay. Go to TWF too. And bring it homemade too. That toaster poop is nothing compared to the way you make it at home... depending on HOW you make it at home of course.
3. I have the best answer. I didn't ask a question... Well, you should have because guess what? The answer would be: babies.
AMAZING...AWESOME, RIGHT?? Okay so say the guy you like asks you a question that totally catches you off guard, and you don't know what to say or how to respond... You answer with "babies", gain your composure, and if you want, answer again pretending you never said anything to do with babies :) :

TheGuyYouLike: "Hey, uh, [insert your name here] I drove by your house last night, and I saw you in your window and you were mimiking the face that the big happy baby sun makes in teletubbies. Did you really do that? 'Cause that's weird and I wouldn't know what to think..."
You: "um....BABIES."
TheGuyYouLike: "Huh? What'd you say? Did you say 'BABIES'? Huh? Babies? Did I miss something? Huh? Babies?"
You: "I was actually practicing making my smile cuter for you :)"
TheGuyYouLike: "Oh. But why did you say 'babies'?"
You: "I didn't. Are you okay? I mean children are great, but aren't you a little young......"


And so on. :) ORRR

Mom: "Did you finish your Spanish homework, [insert name here]?"
You: "BABIES!!!" *run away*

So everything I just said makes sense, for once. :) :D =D =)
Smiley overload. Sorry.




Hugs on the other hand...

Lyrics, Karate, Life, and Not My Favorite Kind of Powerade

"I like nonsense - it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope... and that enables you to laugh at all of life's realities."
- Dr Seuss


"Have you noticed that whatever sport you're trying to learn, some earnest person is always telling you to keep your knees bent?"
-Dave Barry


Yes I have actually... Noticed about the knee thing I mean. Whatever. I'm confusing myself already. I have a new ALMOST favorite song. Why almost, Becca? Well, because I haven't known it long enough for it to be a favorite. It has to earn my favoritism by pleasing me every time I listen to it. AH PAUSE. I just found a hilarious quote OKAY:
"If you were to open up a baby's head - and I am not for a moment suggesting that you should - you would find nothing but an enormous drool gland. " -Dave Barry. He's funny. Okay, uh play. I'm going to post the lyrics to my ALMOST favorite song, Kids by MGMT

You were a child
Crawling on your knees toward it
Making momma so proud,
But your voice is too loud

We like to watch you laughing,
You pick the insects off plants
No time to think of consequences

[Chorus:]
Control yourself
Take only what you need from it
A family of trees wanted
To be haunted

[Repeat chorus]

The water is warm
But it’s sending me shivers
A baby is born
Crying out for attention

The memories fade
Like looking through a fogged mirror
Decision to decisions are made
And not bought,
But I thought this wouldn’t hurt a lot.
I guess not

[Chorus x2]

It's about growing up...
Yes I copy and pasted that. I'm lazy. Deal with it. I'm also annoyed. Why? I have no idea. I just am. I know that just made a ton of sense and I bet you feel stupid for reading that. Baha...Why did I laugh? I have no idea. Don't you feel stupid.
But not as stupid as me...
Wanna know why?
No?
Then leave. Now. Kidding.

Okay so on Thursday I tested for my gold belt in Karate, and I did a really embarrassing thing. No I did not wet my pants. I sprained my wrist, hitting the board. Oh, I broke the board alright. The problem was I was focusing too much on power and forget what part of my hand to hit the board with and, no one noticed, but my pinky knuckle collided with board thus progressing a purple bruise, a visit to the doctors, a brace, and a pretty good amount of pain. Of course this isn't as interesting as Austin's.
He breaks his wrist skating. The bone goes back together but there is still hairline break. He gets an xray. It feels better. It's no longer broken. It still hurts...blah blah blah. ALL IN ONE (or maybe two) DAY(s). That's pretty darn crazy and confusing. Not as embarrassing as my delightful story but yeah.

On a less random note: Life is hard right now. I can't really say much on here, and I don't want to, but I want to say something. This is sort of a way to sort out my thoughts. I lost some friends a while ago. Except at the time, I didn't really think I lost them. I just sort of thought we were having a fight or something, and one thing led to another. I've realized now that they don't exactly want to be my friend anymore but it's still hard. They were a part of me and it's difficult trying to let people get to know me but exclude that part. Or try to forget half of what kept me smiling for a year. I'll look around and everything I see reminds me of the mistakes I made with them, and what I could have done differently. Maybe if I did do some things differently I would still have them, but I have no contorl over that. Somehow this is God's plan. I don't know how or why, but it is. He knows what I need more than I do. I guess you can't expect everyone to stick around for forever. Everyone has a life, with busy schedules, friends, and priorities. I can't expect someone to fully understand how I feel, what I want, and what I'm thinking all the time. I can't expect them never to let me down or to always be there whenever I need them. That's unrealistic. Now, after I've gotten past all the shock of "What the heck just happened?" I'm still finding things that sting memories of them. I'm finding gifts they've given me that I'm too scared to get rid off in case it really is just a fight. Thoughts, songs, pictures, inside jokes. I don't want to be scared to trust anyone though. I don't want to go through life hesitant of letting someone see the real me because I'm too scared they will run away or leave me for the time they're too scared to waste. I don't want to think I'm a waste of time. ANYWAYS. I don't know how this is supposed to make sense to you. I guess, just know that everyone hurts. You aren't the only one who's suffering, nor is the person to your right or left. It's scary how different we try to make ourselves be from one another when we are really so similar. We all want to be the one who's hurting or the one who's not hurting. The one who's life sucks or the one who has everything together. Everyone's life is no piece of cake. Life in general is no piece of cake.

That helped. Thank you for letting me waste your time. :)

My favorite kind of Powerade is Grape...not "red"

Hugs on the other hand...

Links, winks, and something else that rhymes with links.

You know what frustrates me? The post beneath this one. You wanna know WHY? No? Then leave. Now.

Just kidding. Don't leave. Please.

If you happen to see a "Band width exceeded" wording where a picture with a road and a white line should be then you understand why I'm mad...I hope. I found that picture and I wanted to share it with you all and photobucket decided to be a ding dong and have different plans.

SO.... so you all can have an idea of what the heck I was talking about, here: http://photobucket.com/images/photography/?page=4 It should be the first picture. If it isn't then you can just be confused. :)

So I have really exciting relationship news but I would feel weird posting it.... Oh well. I'm going to anyway.

I am no longer single, and here is a link to the amazing boy's blog. http://thisislifeforus.blogspot.com/

Read it, follow it, love it. OR FREAKING ELSE. Eh... that was weird...I'm sorry.

:)

So guess what happened to me today at MAFA (Southern Artworks). GOOD GRIEF! You just can't... never mind. You probably have no idea what I'm talking about. If you've read ALL of my other posts, then maybe, chances are you haven't though. Unless you're awesome like me. ANYWAYS. So yeah, I'll just tell you since you're lacking skills in the guessing department. (Or maybe I'm just talking to myself....) Today it was raining a lot which would be fine if I didn't have classes, curled hair, or books to carry. I love rain, I do. But when you have a class 5 seconds from when you left the building, and when in that class, being soaking wet sort of draws attention to yourself, you kind of want to be dry. Or at least MOSTLY dry. Well I don't think the people that run the school understand that. OR that it was raining because they locked all the doors except 1 in the building we had to get into. Now the school/church is made up of 2 buildings. I have classes in both buildings. Normally all the students go under the walkway to the other building without getting sun in their eyes, getting wet, getting hot...etc. It's quite convenient. BUT it was locked, hence the "Normally". And then all of us found out that the only OPEN door was on the other side of the school/church on a hill. So I'm like "No big deal. It's just school, who cares if I'm a little wet?" WRONG WAY TO THINK.

Because right after that, Mrs. South gives Jack and I an umbrella. How is that wrong? Well, person I can't see, I'm getting there. Right after THAT me and jack get to the hill and we are half way up when my feet do a "Mary" and skid from underneath me causing me to slip, fall, and slide down the hill. (Thank the Lord it wasn't all the way to the bottom.) But that's not the sad, depressing, and hilarious... Or maybe it is. I don't know who all is reading this so I guess it depends. The sad, depressing, and hilarious part is I got mud, water, and grass ALL over the back side of my jeans, I ripped my shirt, it took me 30 minutes to get the mud and grass off (still looked like I turned my jeans around, had an accident, and turned them again though), and Jack was right beside me laughing. I can him now "You are my favorite person in the whole world now." Being accident prone has absolutely benefits besides smiles and being made fun of.

Okay well my phone rang. Bye...um...OH YEAH ;) (that's were the wink comes in)

Hugs on the other hand...